Okay, so forever ago I started seeing icons with new Izzie and Denny scenes and I was all "WTF? How is Denny back?" Cause of course I loved Jefferey Dean Morgan to begin with but Denny and Izzie were my only favorite thing about Grey's Anatomy at all. I never watched it religiously except for when he was on it, and when he came back when Meredith wad drown, loved it. I hadn't been watching it at all this season either and then saw all this. After I started seeing the icons and such of their new scenes I meant to try and watch it somehow but never did. Tonight I couldn't sleep and started thinking about them again randomly and how much time I spent on youtube looking for their scenes and watching videos of them.

So I just spent the last hour and a half watching all the scenes from 5x01-05-13. And. OMG.

A small paragraph on thoughts for this...

I cried just as much as when I would watch the video of her freaking out on Denny to let her get him this heart and then when he died. Ahhh! OMG. First I was crying cause their scenes were beautiful and I couldn't believe she could touch and kiss him and omg it was amazing, no matter how crazy we knew she was going. But then, I was crying when she was going with Alex instead of him, and breaking up with him. Then, he was still there, and you could see it killed him, and the way he said he was "here for you..." changed. And I figured it out. Probably cause I had heard the rumors of her leaving and scene the stuff online of her in the hospital and such recently. I realized he meant, he was there for her, not emotionally to help her, but FOR HER. As in like, an Angel of Death way. It's her time. I thought she'd have to go with him. But instead all she had to do was figure it out on her own because I realized he couldn't tell her. He kept telling her to figure it out, that she was a dr. a scientist. Finally she did. I loved his speech about how he thought this was heaven, being with her, but he thought now maybe it was hell. Ohh man. And she was angry at him for it. And I was going to hate if they ended it like that but instead she yells at him to go and asks what he's waiting for and he says "this" and goes and grabs her for a kiss. AHHH!

So am I totally aweful for kind of wanting Izzie really to die so that she can be with him "for real" in heaven? I knew she wanted out, so it had to be cancer. Just would have thought she'd catch something that big. Which would be why Derek said it usually comes with headached and extreme hallucinations, which Alex picked up on when he said it.

And now I just spent the last hour watching fanvideos of them. Watched all the ones from when they were first together, now I have to watch them all from their second time together.

This ones good...Everytime We Touch

And this short rock one...Breathe Into Me

And this ones just...REALLY GOOD

And I love the song on this one...My Skin"

My Skin by Natalie Merchant, I've been listening to that song nonstop lately. First I heard it on an old Xena and Gabrielle music video I had, then some fanmixes and finally with this video. It's a beautiful song. Good video to end on too.

I wish I had some pretty pictures to go along, but it's midnight and I'm tired...

Ooo, I just found this though...

From Untold_Verity